The Great Lyricist I

~ I've been traveling on this road too long, just trying to find my way back home,

the old me is dead and gone, dead and gone.

~ Folks call me the maverick, I guess I ain't too diplomatic

nothing ventured nothing gained, sometimes you got to go against the grain

I have been accused of making my own rules, there must be rebel blood just running through my
veins

~ Suddenly I see, this is what I want to be

suddenly I see, why the hell it means so much to me

~ I can lead the nation with a microphone

~ Put me on the train momma i'm leaving today

cause I got the fever and that's for sure and to know I can get it makes me want it more

there's a world out there spinning and I want to be spinning with it

there's a life out there and it's going to be mine

~ I'm the energizer playboy bunny

~ Fully alive, more than most, fully alive, and she knows how to believe

~ she's got tattoos and piercings, she likes minor threat she likes social distortion

she's pissed off at everyone, she wants a riot, a riot girl and she's taking on the world

~ Somebody get me through this nightmare, I can't control myself

so what if you can see the darker side of me, no one will ever change this

animal I have become, and we believe it's not the real me

I can't escape myself

~ The one and only rebel child from a family meek and mild,

my momma seemed to know what lay in store, in spite of all my

Sunday learning toward the bad I kept on turning

~ Back to back with the Rio Grande the Christian woman in the devil's land, she learned the

language and she learned to fight but she never learned how to beat the lonely nights

Lone Ranger

When my roomate first moved out I thought for sure that I would get lonely here all by myself, and I see now that I was most certainly wrong. I love living by myself, I am not sure if it's just because I know that it is only for a limited amount of time, or because it has some definate benefits lol.
I realize that this has been a wonderful experience for me, and it has made me see a lot of things about myself, I believe I have grown from it all.
Suddenly I see that I am "self-sufficient", I don't need anybody to go shopping with me, if I want to go then I go. I don't need anybody to go get groceries with me, if I need them I go get them. I don't have someone to just fall back on and am now forced slightly out of my comfort zone and made to do things with other friends, and to volunteer with people I don't even know.
I am getting my shit done, and taking care of my business, something I did before but not nearly on the same level as now.
It is very very liberating, knowing that yes, I can do this.

Safer Sex Patrol

So, tonight my friend and I are going to the bar to pass out condoms for safer sex patrol which is an organization that passes out free condoms and literature about abstinance. I just got started in it and have only gone to one of the meetings, tonight will be my second, and i'm kinda excited...plus I hear that I get a cool shirt to wear lol. I think that it is a pretty good organization and I think that it is a really good idea, it's something I feel kinda strongly about. I plan on passing out my rubbers quickly and then hanging out with a few of my friends at the bar lol, i'm sure they could all use some protection, so maybe it will be a short night...
Remember, no glove no love! :-P

-Miss Safer Sex Misfit

WTF

A fiery hate
Burns in me now
Caused by my
Distaste for your moodiness and self-
Empahy
For fuck sake,
Get over yourself, and be nice to me
Have you forgotten all that you and
I have done and said, the friends we were,
Just remember that, will you
Kick our friendship to the side?
Like it means nothing to you?
My mind isn't clear
Nothing but the future knows now, what result will come.

Love

What is it that came from heaven but is also here on earth?
What is the best thing in the world and the worst thing?
What can tear us apart but also make us whole?
What is the thing that can make our eyes blind and open them to wonders?
What can stop wars and create life while its opposite takes life away?
What is feared by some and longed for by others?

Fire

Fire burns the forrest, the trees, life, whatever it can reach

It sucks the oxygen and spreads death without a thought, it feeds its lust without a care

What it leaves behind is ash, the skeleton of what once held life, energy and love

When the fire burns all it can touch it burns out without any cares, it has served its purpose

The destruction it has left is alone, all is silent, from the ash the forrest, trees and life must cling together and pick up whats left of its roots and try to regain the strength and beauty it once had

It once stood tall and alone, now its ashes mean nothing to that which once called it breathtaking

Breathtaking to the fire which eagerly sought something to burn and destroy

Now, its job done it leaves strength and beauty to smolder in pain in its aftermath

The forrest re-grows slowly but always bears the scars of the fire

Fire is a man

Fast and Furious

It occurs to me as I watch The Fast and the Furious, I like this movie, and i really like cars. I wish I knew as much about them as the people in this movie.

Plague

I feel like I have the plague, nobody wants anything to do with me for fear they will die. I repel pretty much everybody lately. I don't know what the deal is, but it makes me wonder what the hell i've done to piss everybody off. Sad. Maybe I should move into the leper colony.

Sailor Part II

As excited as I was to meet my sailor I did not want to get off that plane, I was thinking about throwing up the butterflies from my stomach. I knew logically I had to get off the plane, I just wanted those first 5 seconds to be over...I stepped into the airport and looked for David, scared out of my mind. I fix my shirt, black, skulls, nautical stars, low V neck. I gave David the same shirt for his birthday last year, he's going to be wearing it today.
I tell myself I look good, perfect red nails, low cut shirt shows my neck off nicely, the jeans make my ass look good, the sun shows off my wavy red hair, big green eyes shining. I ignore the sweat and the nausea.
I hold my bag and look around the airport...
OMG
there he is...
my sailor,
my boo,
David.
He has a huge smile and he's wearing the shirt I gave him. His baseball hat is backwards and he has black shorts on. He's so freakin hot. I can feel my face turn red and I smile uncontrolably.
He walks toward me and gives me a twirling hug and I feel my feet leave the ground for a minute. He sets me down and we smile at eachother, I look into those big blue eyes..."hi boo" he says, and in this moment I know...
This is where I am supposed to be.
The world turned upside down.
Everything around us has fallen away.
Time has stopped.
Songs play in my head.
My heart is flying.
That's the way it started...

Kidney Stone

It was one year ago today April 7th, that I had my kidney stone...that is a pain I never ever want to feel ever again. Terrible, just terrible. I still remember laying in that hospital bed in the emergency room at 4 am...hmm, I wonder if I ever actually passed that puppy lol.

Pole

I decided that I want to learn how to pole dance, I hear that its good exercise and I think it looks really fun. I saw some on t.v. the other day and I was amazed! Now I wanna learn!...too bad poles are so expensive, grrrr. Maybe santa will bring me one for x-mas lol.
-Miss pole dancing misfit