I think I may be in over my head a bit
bit off more than I can continue to chew, it's fine for now but eventually ill have to spit out the piece of gum ive been chewing and eat the dinner that I have been waiting for forever and have already told I would eat...I realize that none of this makes any sense to the outside observer but I know what i'm talkin about. And what i'm talkin about is me trying to balance. It all boils down to Mr. Right and Mr. Right Now.
I love Right and am not sure I have any right to get involved with Right Now, but I do like Right Now...and what if I cast him aside only to find out that things were not as they were supposed to be with Right, then I have lost both.
Why the hell do I always have problems like this? lol
I selfishly want Right Now to fall hopelessly in love with me as he has never done with anyone before, but on the other hand i'm not entirely sure that I can return that kind of love because my heart belongs to Right.
I can only hope that Right Now will realize his homosexuality thats down there and realize he loves men...then all will be spared, I think lol.
I also feel guilty for having Right Now because Right doesn't know about him and I know that I would be severely crushed if I knew Right was entertaining another lady so far away from me.
So what to do, what to do...
I've chosen the ignore it and it will take care of itself path, while concentrating on school and myself. I don't want to hurt Right Now, but even as I study I can't help but think about a wedding with Right.
~MisS FucKeD-uP MissFiT lol
