Turmoil

I have all these feelings that I don't really know how to sort out. One part of my life has ended so abruptly that I didnt really have time to close the door and end it the way I wanted to. I know it has probably been ended for me and I think that's the way it will end, but that is not what I want. I don't want to end the feelings that have grown in me all summer. These feelings are probably just surface feelings to him...yes, that's what this all boils down to, a "him". We made memories, had lots of fun, I want it to continue even though I don't get to be with him everyday anymore. Trouble is I don't know if he cares about any of that. I almost feel like I should just bow out gracefully and pretend that its not a big deal and that I was just having fun. After all, that's what guys do, isn't it?...