Why is it that the people who are negative and drag you down are always the first ones to point out that YOU are indeed the negative one, not them?
I'm tired of negative energy, it is what it is and I can't live in a dark sad hole anymore...there is too much out there! :)
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
I Have Returned
I haven't written in here for months and months...i guess its because I felt like my life was falling apart and I was too busy crying and acting like a zombie to get on here and write it all out. I also had some huge internet issues...damn internet *shakes fist*
Soooo i'm back! Hopefully I will be able to remember and get on here more often now.
I'm now off to Sir Pizza to celebrate my favorite cousin who is done with nursing school now! Then off to the bar across the street, which is apparently a lesbian bar...my cousin says its a fun bar though, so we shall see! Maybe i'll get hit on, that would be a change from any normal bar lol
Soooo i'm back! Hopefully I will be able to remember and get on here more often now.
I'm now off to Sir Pizza to celebrate my favorite cousin who is done with nursing school now! Then off to the bar across the street, which is apparently a lesbian bar...my cousin says its a fun bar though, so we shall see! Maybe i'll get hit on, that would be a change from any normal bar lol
Monday, July 19, 2010
Bella
Poor Bella Swan. I totally understand what she is going through right now, she knows what the right thing to do is but she has the constant reminder of what other choice she could have. Both Edward and Jacob love her, and she loves both of them too. She knows she is suppsed to be with Edward, he is her other half. But she loves Jacob too...I have always wanted two guys to fawn all over me and love me.
I never understood that someone would get hurt.
Now I have an Edward and a Jacob, and it hurts me inside.
I know I belong with my Edward but I think I love my Jacob too.
I am Bella.
I never understood that someone would get hurt.
Now I have an Edward and a Jacob, and it hurts me inside.
I know I belong with my Edward but I think I love my Jacob too.
I am Bella.
A Letter From the Heart
Dear Cuntbag,
You are a fucking whore. I hate you and am tired of your attitude and paranoia. I don't enjoy living in your storage locker despite what you may believe. I am also tired of your holier than thou attitude and your fucking drama. Feel free to get some perscription drugs for that, strong ones. And another thing, please don't think that I need to inform you of my exact time of arrival home, if i'm home i'm home, if i'm not...don't concern yourself. And do not lock me out of my own apartment (since I pay half the rent) with the doorstop that I brought to the apartment. Just FYI, there is no boogeyman so it's really not necessary to sleep with the light in the livingroom on and your door open. there are no ghosts in the apartment so the only thing there to bother you in the night would be me. And i'm in my own room. In light of this fact, I really don't think it's necessary to sleep with the bb gun loaded and sitting on your mattress on the floor next to your head...
I hate to be a bitch, but since you have stopped treating me with the respect of a friend and adult i'll feel free to say this...I hope you never have children, you would be a terrible mother and your children would be miserable and have more psychological issues than you and their grandmother. I also hope that you don't get married, this is for the sake of your would be husband. The man would be so weak and bent that after living with you too long he will become a shell of a human. The only end to that marriage would be you killing him for thinking he was cheating on you, or him getting depressed and killing himself or you and the children so that they won't have to suffer any longer with you either.
Side note, I know now why you have such a difficult time maintaining friendships...you're a fucking bitch. If your husband shot you in the face and killed you I believe that your brother and your mother would be the only ones to miss you...because honestly, who else would your mom have to manipulate? And how would babysit for your brother? On the bright side, maybe another filthy loose slut will come along to take your place.
P.S. Yes, you do have a big nose. I lied.
You are a fucking whore. I hate you and am tired of your attitude and paranoia. I don't enjoy living in your storage locker despite what you may believe. I am also tired of your holier than thou attitude and your fucking drama. Feel free to get some perscription drugs for that, strong ones. And another thing, please don't think that I need to inform you of my exact time of arrival home, if i'm home i'm home, if i'm not...don't concern yourself. And do not lock me out of my own apartment (since I pay half the rent) with the doorstop that I brought to the apartment. Just FYI, there is no boogeyman so it's really not necessary to sleep with the light in the livingroom on and your door open. there are no ghosts in the apartment so the only thing there to bother you in the night would be me. And i'm in my own room. In light of this fact, I really don't think it's necessary to sleep with the bb gun loaded and sitting on your mattress on the floor next to your head...
I hate to be a bitch, but since you have stopped treating me with the respect of a friend and adult i'll feel free to say this...I hope you never have children, you would be a terrible mother and your children would be miserable and have more psychological issues than you and their grandmother. I also hope that you don't get married, this is for the sake of your would be husband. The man would be so weak and bent that after living with you too long he will become a shell of a human. The only end to that marriage would be you killing him for thinking he was cheating on you, or him getting depressed and killing himself or you and the children so that they won't have to suffer any longer with you either.
Side note, I know now why you have such a difficult time maintaining friendships...you're a fucking bitch. If your husband shot you in the face and killed you I believe that your brother and your mother would be the only ones to miss you...because honestly, who else would your mom have to manipulate? And how would babysit for your brother? On the bright side, maybe another filthy loose slut will come along to take your place.
P.S. Yes, you do have a big nose. I lied.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Sea of Deceit II
The tingly nipples and porn star double D's showed up after the failure of my "red army" to invade and made me wonder. A couple of weeks of throwing up and being sick as a dog fueled the flame of my suspicion. The plus sign on that precious little pee stick closed the deal for me. I was so excited that I quite literally began to squeal and do what I like to refer to as my "happy dance." After years of thinking about it, and wondering what it would be like and feel like, it was suddenly my turn to find out. My turn to have a baby!
It had happened the night before David had to go to sea. I wanted him to think about me on all those long lonely nights, I wanted to send my sailor off to that Carrier properly. We lay in bed for hours until the alarm next to our bed went off and signaled the beginning of my heartache. As he drove away I let the tear roll down my face, I am not really sure why but it felt like the right thing to do, seemed poetic or something. I am really not sure. That night was like hell without him. I tossed and turned all night and could think of nothing but him. I broke down and cried, something I had not done since my dog died when I was twelve. I was honestly on the verge of a panic attack thinking about how lonely I was laying in our bed. Weeping like a child seemed to calm me down, or maybe it was the picture in my head of what an idiot I look like when I cry. Either way I calmed myself and checked my phone for texts from David to see if he had made it alright. I feel asleep with my phone in hand that night.
Dr. Bellows was taking forever to get into my examining room. I twisted my long red ponytail around my finger again and again impatiently, I hated the doctors office more than just about anything and I had already been sitting in one for nearly an hour. I was fiddling with my short red nails when the Dr. finally came in, the older woman smiled up at me. "Good Morning Mrs. Bertuzzi, chart says you are newly pregnant...congratulations! Now let's have a look..."
The rest of the appointment went by quickly, thank goodness, and I was on my way home. Having confirmed it with Dr. Bellows that I was indeed pregnant my next step was to make it home safely...and think of baby names at the same time. As I walked to my Mustang in the parking lot I wondered sadly if I could fit a baby seat in the backseat. I already knew the answer. I gave my pretty orange car a little pat as I got inside, "I know, I know Mustangs aren't family cars." I flipped the car key and felt a rush as the engine roared to life with muscled power and the cd player blared my Rockabilly music. "Damn mini-vans." I muttered as I slammed the orange door closed and put on my aviators.
It had happened the night before David had to go to sea. I wanted him to think about me on all those long lonely nights, I wanted to send my sailor off to that Carrier properly. We lay in bed for hours until the alarm next to our bed went off and signaled the beginning of my heartache. As he drove away I let the tear roll down my face, I am not really sure why but it felt like the right thing to do, seemed poetic or something. I am really not sure. That night was like hell without him. I tossed and turned all night and could think of nothing but him. I broke down and cried, something I had not done since my dog died when I was twelve. I was honestly on the verge of a panic attack thinking about how lonely I was laying in our bed. Weeping like a child seemed to calm me down, or maybe it was the picture in my head of what an idiot I look like when I cry. Either way I calmed myself and checked my phone for texts from David to see if he had made it alright. I feel asleep with my phone in hand that night.
Dr. Bellows was taking forever to get into my examining room. I twisted my long red ponytail around my finger again and again impatiently, I hated the doctors office more than just about anything and I had already been sitting in one for nearly an hour. I was fiddling with my short red nails when the Dr. finally came in, the older woman smiled up at me. "Good Morning Mrs. Bertuzzi, chart says you are newly pregnant...congratulations! Now let's have a look..."
The rest of the appointment went by quickly, thank goodness, and I was on my way home. Having confirmed it with Dr. Bellows that I was indeed pregnant my next step was to make it home safely...and think of baby names at the same time. As I walked to my Mustang in the parking lot I wondered sadly if I could fit a baby seat in the backseat. I already knew the answer. I gave my pretty orange car a little pat as I got inside, "I know, I know Mustangs aren't family cars." I flipped the car key and felt a rush as the engine roared to life with muscled power and the cd player blared my Rockabilly music. "Damn mini-vans." I muttered as I slammed the orange door closed and put on my aviators.
Sea of Deceit
Our first real date was a demolition derby at the county fair. The smell of deep fried goodies and sweet treats in the air all around us. Lights from the rides had begun to turn on as we left the grandstand, David took my hand and led me to the scrambler, we laughed and smiled like crazies getting off the thing. David kissed me for the first time that night. That is the night that all the magic began. Him and I. Nicky and David.
Fast forward another year, and here I am, still with my magic man. My Navy man. David. I hardly noticed the cold on my face or the huge snowflakes that landed on my hair and on my eyelashes. What I did notice was how silent it seemed to be all around us like we were the only human beings left in the world.
The night was dark and the sky was something like a romantic shade of purple, it looked like silk above the earth. Holding David's arm we walked through the snowy night, so in love that to us nothing else mattered, nothing but us and this night we were walking in. David leaned into me pulling me closer to him, he kissed my forehead and smiled at me. Snow fell around us, sildent and fluffy. It landed on the thin twisted fingers of trees all over the park, bushes and shrubs took on the appearance of huge dollups of french vanilla ice cream.
Our feet carried us to the gazebo in the middle of the park, covered with snow and tucked away from the rest of the world. Not wanting to break the silence we were in, we sat down in the gazebo and talked with our hands and eyes, saying things our minds could understand but our mouths could never hope to understand or compare with. A kind of magic passed between us through our fingertips, the way I felt was my soul finding a perfect peace inside the soul of the man sitting here next to me tonight. "It's perfect here isn't it? Just like you, perfect." David touched my face as he spoke, I smiled and laid my cool cheek against his loving hand.
"Nicky I have wanted to give this to you since the day that I met you. Now I can't wait anymore." He smiled and dug out a small ring box. Heat and a coolness swept all up and down my body, my legs tingled and a field of monarchs had taken my stomach hostage. "Will you be my wife?" David asked me as he lifted the lid on the ring box. I stared at the ring inside, funny that somethinbg so small could change my life so much. It was a silver band with a pink opal in the center, my birthstone, he knew me too well. I am fairly certain I sat in that gazebo with my mouth handing open looking dumb for about an hour before David gave a quiet laugh at my expense which made me snap back to the moment, and the question at hand.
"...Yes, I would love that." I said, hugging my sailor like someone might try and take him from me. I pulled my head off his shoulder only long enough to kiss him and tell him I loved him. We held eachother in that gazebo with the snow falling around us, he whispered in my ear that we would be so happy together. My only reply was to hold his body. I knew at that moment that this was the happiest I had ever been. Definately the best day of my life.
Until Today.
Fast forward another year, and here I am, still with my magic man. My Navy man. David. I hardly noticed the cold on my face or the huge snowflakes that landed on my hair and on my eyelashes. What I did notice was how silent it seemed to be all around us like we were the only human beings left in the world.
The night was dark and the sky was something like a romantic shade of purple, it looked like silk above the earth. Holding David's arm we walked through the snowy night, so in love that to us nothing else mattered, nothing but us and this night we were walking in. David leaned into me pulling me closer to him, he kissed my forehead and smiled at me. Snow fell around us, sildent and fluffy. It landed on the thin twisted fingers of trees all over the park, bushes and shrubs took on the appearance of huge dollups of french vanilla ice cream.
Our feet carried us to the gazebo in the middle of the park, covered with snow and tucked away from the rest of the world. Not wanting to break the silence we were in, we sat down in the gazebo and talked with our hands and eyes, saying things our minds could understand but our mouths could never hope to understand or compare with. A kind of magic passed between us through our fingertips, the way I felt was my soul finding a perfect peace inside the soul of the man sitting here next to me tonight. "It's perfect here isn't it? Just like you, perfect." David touched my face as he spoke, I smiled and laid my cool cheek against his loving hand.
"Nicky I have wanted to give this to you since the day that I met you. Now I can't wait anymore." He smiled and dug out a small ring box. Heat and a coolness swept all up and down my body, my legs tingled and a field of monarchs had taken my stomach hostage. "Will you be my wife?" David asked me as he lifted the lid on the ring box. I stared at the ring inside, funny that somethinbg so small could change my life so much. It was a silver band with a pink opal in the center, my birthstone, he knew me too well. I am fairly certain I sat in that gazebo with my mouth handing open looking dumb for about an hour before David gave a quiet laugh at my expense which made me snap back to the moment, and the question at hand.
"...Yes, I would love that." I said, hugging my sailor like someone might try and take him from me. I pulled my head off his shoulder only long enough to kiss him and tell him I loved him. We held eachother in that gazebo with the snow falling around us, he whispered in my ear that we would be so happy together. My only reply was to hold his body. I knew at that moment that this was the happiest I had ever been. Definately the best day of my life.
Until Today.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Arizona
I'm studying and getting ready for finals, unfortunately Miss Rockabilly Misfit has summer classes allll fuckin summer. Major suckage. I am also looking for a summer job up here in Mt. Hickabilly, my roomate and I filled out job apps (she needs a job badly and hasn't had one for like a year)...the first and only place I turn one in the manager calls me and offers me an interview...somebody wasn't happy about that *evil giggle*
So once the first set of summer classes are over I am going to fly to Arizona with my grandma! She says she's going to pay for my ticket but she says a lot of things lol. We are flying down to see my aunt and her new husband. I'm really excited because a. I need a vacation b. I want to see my favorite aunt c. I've never been to AZ and... most importantly
my Sailor will be home on leave so I can go see him and meet his family!!
my little heart flutters at the thought and I feel like getting up and doing a crazy excited too much caffeine dance right now....AGHHHHH!
I have been waiting for this for like three years, knowing my luck it will get fucked up somehow lol, but I pray that it will be the trip I imagine it will be.
<3 Miss Lovestruck Misfit <3
So once the first set of summer classes are over I am going to fly to Arizona with my grandma! She says she's going to pay for my ticket but she says a lot of things lol. We are flying down to see my aunt and her new husband. I'm really excited because a. I need a vacation b. I want to see my favorite aunt c. I've never been to AZ and... most importantly
my Sailor will be home on leave so I can go see him and meet his family!!
my little heart flutters at the thought and I feel like getting up and doing a crazy excited too much caffeine dance right now....AGHHHHH!
I have been waiting for this for like three years, knowing my luck it will get fucked up somehow lol, but I pray that it will be the trip I imagine it will be.
<3 Miss Lovestruck Misfit <3
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Criminal
I've been a bad, bad girl
I've been careless with a delicate man
And it's a sad, sad world
When a girl will break a boy just because she can
Don't you tell me to deny it
I've done wrong and I want to suffer for my sins
I've come to you 'cause I need guidance to be true
And I just don't know where I can begin
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love
Heaven help me for the way I am
Save me from these evil deeds before I get them done
I know tomorrow brings the consequence at hand
But I keep living this day like the next will never come
Oh help me but don't tell me to deny it
I've got to cleanse myself of all these lies 'till I'm good enough for him
I've got a lot to lose and I'm bettin' high so I'm begging you
Before it ends just tell me where to begin
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love
Let me know the way
Before there's hell to pay
Give me room to lay the law and let me go
I've got to make a play
To make my lover stay
So what would an angel say, the devil wants to know
I've been careless with a delicate man
And it's a sad, sad world
When a girl will break a boy just because she can
Don't you tell me to deny it
I've done wrong and I want to suffer for my sins
I've come to you 'cause I need guidance to be true
And I just don't know where I can begin
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love
Heaven help me for the way I am
Save me from these evil deeds before I get them done
I know tomorrow brings the consequence at hand
But I keep living this day like the next will never come
Oh help me but don't tell me to deny it
I've got to cleanse myself of all these lies 'till I'm good enough for him
I've got a lot to lose and I'm bettin' high so I'm begging you
Before it ends just tell me where to begin
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love
Let me know the way
Before there's hell to pay
Give me room to lay the law and let me go
I've got to make a play
To make my lover stay
So what would an angel say, the devil wants to know
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
4-20
Happy 4-20!
I dont know why I say this, I have never smoked pot in my life lol. Although my neighbor was certainly celebrating, like, at 12:30 this morning. I walk past his apt and it smells like Snoop Dogg has moved in.
Today is also Hitler's birthday and the annaversairy of the school shooting at Columbine.
I thought about adding a link to the Cyprus Hill song Ganja Bus cuz I thought it would be nice, and its a good song, but I ran out of energy...so go look it up yourself lol.
I dont know why I say this, I have never smoked pot in my life lol. Although my neighbor was certainly celebrating, like, at 12:30 this morning. I walk past his apt and it smells like Snoop Dogg has moved in.
Today is also Hitler's birthday and the annaversairy of the school shooting at Columbine.
I thought about adding a link to the Cyprus Hill song Ganja Bus cuz I thought it would be nice, and its a good song, but I ran out of energy...so go look it up yourself lol.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Short Story
Once upon a time, in a little hickabilly town there was a girl who was stuck.
This girl was stuck in the hickabilly town with old people and white trash folks because that's where the college she was stuck in was located.
Every weekend the girl would go home to her home town which was awesome.
Every week when she came back to the hickabilly white trash trailor town her roomates boyfriend was there. The boyfriend spent more time in the apt than the girl did, but somehow did not have to pay rent.
Now the girl had to deal with this man taking her spot on the couch and stinking up her bathroom and using the last of the tp and not putting a fresh roll on.
The girl wanted to punch his fuckin loser ass face in, after she punched him in the balls.
Good thing I dont have to go to the bathroom, the girl thought, because he's in there shitting...again.
So, the moral of the story is... If I gotta shit in my own apt I'm gunna hafta walk my ass to the store next door to do it...
The End
This girl was stuck in the hickabilly town with old people and white trash folks because that's where the college she was stuck in was located.
Every weekend the girl would go home to her home town which was awesome.
Every week when she came back to the hickabilly white trash trailor town her roomates boyfriend was there. The boyfriend spent more time in the apt than the girl did, but somehow did not have to pay rent.
Now the girl had to deal with this man taking her spot on the couch and stinking up her bathroom and using the last of the tp and not putting a fresh roll on.
The girl wanted to punch his fuckin loser ass face in, after she punched him in the balls.
Good thing I dont have to go to the bathroom, the girl thought, because he's in there shitting...again.
So, the moral of the story is... If I gotta shit in my own apt I'm gunna hafta walk my ass to the store next door to do it...
The End
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Let Down, Yet Again...
Easter came and went, and with it my hopes that a rubber ducky would come to my house. All the build up with comments of "maybe the easter bunny will bring you one" were all empty. Empty words. The good news is that every time i'm let down it hurts me less and less because sadly, i've nearly become used to it.
So, it is what it is and nothing more.
...and i'll go out and buy my own mother fucking rubber ducky
*Miss I Don't Need a Man to Buy Me Things Misfit*
So, it is what it is and nothing more.
...and i'll go out and buy my own mother fucking rubber ducky
*Miss I Don't Need a Man to Buy Me Things Misfit*
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Rubber Duck
Its almost Easter...I hope the Easter Bunny brings me a rubber duckie vibrator in my Easter basket this year! (yes they make such a thing)...although its unlikely since my Mom is my Easter Bunny. That was actually a good thing when I was a kid though because if it would have been my Dad I wouldn't have gotten jack shit but jellybeans...
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Ahoy matey, the waters are rising
I think I may be in over my head a bit
bit off more than I can continue to chew, it's fine for now but eventually ill have to spit out the piece of gum ive been chewing and eat the dinner that I have been waiting for forever and have already told I would eat...I realize that none of this makes any sense to the outside observer but I know what i'm talkin about. And what i'm talkin about is me trying to balance. It all boils down to Mr. Right and Mr. Right Now.
I love Right and am not sure I have any right to get involved with Right Now, but I do like Right Now...and what if I cast him aside only to find out that things were not as they were supposed to be with Right, then I have lost both.
Why the hell do I always have problems like this? lol
I selfishly want Right Now to fall hopelessly in love with me as he has never done with anyone before, but on the other hand i'm not entirely sure that I can return that kind of love because my heart belongs to Right.
I can only hope that Right Now will realize his homosexuality thats down there and realize he loves men...then all will be spared, I think lol.
I also feel guilty for having Right Now because Right doesn't know about him and I know that I would be severely crushed if I knew Right was entertaining another lady so far away from me.
So what to do, what to do...
I've chosen the ignore it and it will take care of itself path, while concentrating on school and myself. I don't want to hurt Right Now, but even as I study I can't help but think about a wedding with Right.
~MisS FucKeD-uP MissFiT lol
bit off more than I can continue to chew, it's fine for now but eventually ill have to spit out the piece of gum ive been chewing and eat the dinner that I have been waiting for forever and have already told I would eat...I realize that none of this makes any sense to the outside observer but I know what i'm talkin about. And what i'm talkin about is me trying to balance. It all boils down to Mr. Right and Mr. Right Now.
I love Right and am not sure I have any right to get involved with Right Now, but I do like Right Now...and what if I cast him aside only to find out that things were not as they were supposed to be with Right, then I have lost both.
Why the hell do I always have problems like this? lol
I selfishly want Right Now to fall hopelessly in love with me as he has never done with anyone before, but on the other hand i'm not entirely sure that I can return that kind of love because my heart belongs to Right.
I can only hope that Right Now will realize his homosexuality thats down there and realize he loves men...then all will be spared, I think lol.
I also feel guilty for having Right Now because Right doesn't know about him and I know that I would be severely crushed if I knew Right was entertaining another lady so far away from me.
So what to do, what to do...
I've chosen the ignore it and it will take care of itself path, while concentrating on school and myself. I don't want to hurt Right Now, but even as I study I can't help but think about a wedding with Right.
~MisS FucKeD-uP MissFiT lol
Jeffrey's Girl
Jeffrey is a friend
Yeah I know he's been a good friend of mine
But lately somethings changed, it ain't hard to define
Jeffrey's got himself a girl and I wanna make her mine
And she's watching him with those eyes
And she's loving him with that body I just know it
And he's holding her in his arms late late at night, you know I wish that I had
Jeffrey's girl, I wish that I had Jeffrey's girl
Why can't I find a woman like that
I play along with the charade, there doesn't seem to be a reason to change
You know I feel so dirty when they start talkin cute, I wanna tell her that
I love her but the point is probably mute cuz
She's watchin him with those eyes
And she's loving him with that body I just know it
And he's holding her in his arms late late at night, you know I wish that I had
Jeffrey's girl, I wish that I had Jeffrey's girl
Why can't I find a woman like that, like Jeffrey's girl
And I'm looking in the mirror all the time, wondering what she don't see in me
I've been funny I've been cool with the lines
Ain't that the way loves suppose to be
Tell me where can I find a woman like that
You know I wish that I had Jeffrey's girl
I wish that I had Jeffrey's girl
I want Jeffrey's girl
Yeah I know he's been a good friend of mine
But lately somethings changed, it ain't hard to define
Jeffrey's got himself a girl and I wanna make her mine
And she's watching him with those eyes
And she's loving him with that body I just know it
And he's holding her in his arms late late at night, you know I wish that I had
Jeffrey's girl, I wish that I had Jeffrey's girl
Why can't I find a woman like that
I play along with the charade, there doesn't seem to be a reason to change
You know I feel so dirty when they start talkin cute, I wanna tell her that
I love her but the point is probably mute cuz
She's watchin him with those eyes
And she's loving him with that body I just know it
And he's holding her in his arms late late at night, you know I wish that I had
Jeffrey's girl, I wish that I had Jeffrey's girl
Why can't I find a woman like that, like Jeffrey's girl
And I'm looking in the mirror all the time, wondering what she don't see in me
I've been funny I've been cool with the lines
Ain't that the way loves suppose to be
Tell me where can I find a woman like that
You know I wish that I had Jeffrey's girl
I wish that I had Jeffrey's girl
I want Jeffrey's girl
Saturday, March 13, 2010
A Man's Fantasy VI
Cally's fingers fucked her pussy harder and harder and she was on the verge, Cally said nothing but there was a fire in her eyes as she nuzzled her face into Ana's breasts and hungrily began to suck them and pull them with her mouth. That was all Ana needed, she felt electricity flowing through her as her back arched and she gasped for air, she felt her body spasm uncontrollably. Cally felt the rush of warmth and a part of her was scared, scared to taste this, but she knew she had to, she had worked for it, now she wanted to consume her prize. She lowered her head and her tongue reached inside Ana, it was warm and creamy and sweet. She licked out all she could and then looked at Ana and licked her lips. Ana smiled, "wow, we should do that again." Cally was about to suggest they go at it again after a snack break but the noise of a key in the door made both girls turn. It was Cally's boyfriend who stared in complete amazement and shock. Cally smiled at him, "hey handsome, wanna play with us?"...
A Man's Fantasy V
Her tongue rolling overall of these new curves and valleys with a mounting excitement. She searched and finally found the spot where she knew Ana wanted her tongue to taste. She slid her smooth tongue over Ana's clit and then flicked it playfully, quickly, and listened to Ana begin to moan, more and more urgently.
She pulled her tongue out only for a moment to teasingly speak to Ana. "Oh, you like that? You want me to lick your pussy again?" Ana shivered slightly and her breathing was heavy. "God yes, I really need you to keep going", Cally smiled mischieviously to herself and replied, "hmm, guess you better earn it then..." Ana knew right away what Cally wanted. Ana's tongue darted in and out of Cally's hole now it was Cally's turn to moan. Her moans turned into urgent cries of lust as Ana moved her tongue to Cally's engorged clit and began playing and swirling around it. Slowly she took two fingers and eased them into the wet hot pussy. Harder and harder she drove them into Cally. In and out, in and out.
All the while giving Cally's clit all the attention it deserved. Meanwhile Cally had pushed her head back down between Ana's legs and was licking and sucking and flicking, wanting desperately to make Ana cum so she could taste it.
However it was Cally who felt the twinge of orgasm before Ana. She felt it rising up from her core, like a drug flying through her veins getting more and more intense until she felt the pleasure take her over. Her body stiffened and she cried out again and again as the waves of pleasure kept flowing, Ana felt the warm cum seep onto her fingers and she removed them so she could lick out the rest. Cally dismounted and slinked over on top of Ana, "your turn." Her lips went to Ana's and she could taste the sweetness of her pussy and cum on Ana's mouth. In her lusty state Ana was vaguely aware that Cally had run her hand over tits and was now playfully sticking her fingers up into Ana and rythmically rubbing her spot. "Open your legs, wider" Cally commanded. Ana knew she would finish soon and did as she was told. She felt Cally's tits rub against her and felt her fingers probing into her even harder, her other hand ran little circles on her clit.
She pulled her tongue out only for a moment to teasingly speak to Ana. "Oh, you like that? You want me to lick your pussy again?" Ana shivered slightly and her breathing was heavy. "God yes, I really need you to keep going", Cally smiled mischieviously to herself and replied, "hmm, guess you better earn it then..." Ana knew right away what Cally wanted. Ana's tongue darted in and out of Cally's hole now it was Cally's turn to moan. Her moans turned into urgent cries of lust as Ana moved her tongue to Cally's engorged clit and began playing and swirling around it. Slowly she took two fingers and eased them into the wet hot pussy. Harder and harder she drove them into Cally. In and out, in and out.
All the while giving Cally's clit all the attention it deserved. Meanwhile Cally had pushed her head back down between Ana's legs and was licking and sucking and flicking, wanting desperately to make Ana cum so she could taste it.
However it was Cally who felt the twinge of orgasm before Ana. She felt it rising up from her core, like a drug flying through her veins getting more and more intense until she felt the pleasure take her over. Her body stiffened and she cried out again and again as the waves of pleasure kept flowing, Ana felt the warm cum seep onto her fingers and she removed them so she could lick out the rest. Cally dismounted and slinked over on top of Ana, "your turn." Her lips went to Ana's and she could taste the sweetness of her pussy and cum on Ana's mouth. In her lusty state Ana was vaguely aware that Cally had run her hand over tits and was now playfully sticking her fingers up into Ana and rythmically rubbing her spot. "Open your legs, wider" Cally commanded. Ana knew she would finish soon and did as she was told. She felt Cally's tits rub against her and felt her fingers probing into her even harder, her other hand ran little circles on her clit.
A Man's Fantasy IV
Cally loved having Ana's fingers being pushed so roughly up her pussy. She closed her eyes and concentrated on how good Ana's fingers felt inside her. "Fuck my fingers", Ana commanded. Cally's body rode up and down against Ana's fingers and her breath was raspy as she moaned more and her own hand moved down and began to rub her own clit while continuing to ride Ana's fingers, pushing them deep inside her. Something in Ana's body made her pull her fingers out and put them in her mouth. She had to know how Cally tasted right now. Cally pouted slightly but quickly forgave Ana as she watched the fingers disappear into Ana's mouth and saw her lips wrap around them. The sweetness of Cally's body sent shivers through Ana and she craved more. Cally watched as Ana pushed her legs apart and put her face between them. She gasped as she felt Ana's tongue touch and play on her clit. Ana played and played with Cally's clit and in and out of her pussy. Cally's legs shook slightly and Ana heard her moans both grateful and begging, pleading for more.
Cally gently tugged Ana's hair to make her stop. Ana looked up into Cally's shining green eyes, "You want a taste?" Cally smiled, "I think we should 69." Ana was hot, wet, and ready to go. She automatically lay her naked body down on Cally's bed and watched Cally with lust as she crawled on top of her and positioned herself so she could put her tongue inside Ana. Cally's mind raced, she had never touched any other woman let alone tasted one. She was nervous but very curious as well. Her heart beat fast as she felt Ana's strong tongue stroke her again.
She moaned loudly and lowered her head to Ana's smooth flesh and slowly lick from one end to the other. She felt Ana buck slightly under her. A strange new taste filled her mouth and Cally yearned for more, she licked again faster this time, and again.
Cally gently tugged Ana's hair to make her stop. Ana looked up into Cally's shining green eyes, "You want a taste?" Cally smiled, "I think we should 69." Ana was hot, wet, and ready to go. She automatically lay her naked body down on Cally's bed and watched Cally with lust as she crawled on top of her and positioned herself so she could put her tongue inside Ana. Cally's mind raced, she had never touched any other woman let alone tasted one. She was nervous but very curious as well. Her heart beat fast as she felt Ana's strong tongue stroke her again.
She moaned loudly and lowered her head to Ana's smooth flesh and slowly lick from one end to the other. She felt Ana buck slightly under her. A strange new taste filled her mouth and Cally yearned for more, she licked again faster this time, and again.
A Man's Fantasy III
Ana let her hands move up to Cally's hard tits visible through her tight shirt, she rubbed them and burried her face in Cally's deep cleavage, covering it with her hungry lips and limber tongue. Ana pulled Cally's shirt over her head, she then wrapped her arms around and unhooked Cally's bra, letting her full breasts spring forth with a slight bounce. Ana's breath was raspy and she could feel her pussy ache for Cally. She kissed her neck and used both hands to cup Cally's breasts, she rubbed and pulled at the hard warm tits. Cally pulled the girls lips to hers and kissed her roughly with a little tug at her dark hair. Cally suddenly pulled away and got up off the bed. "I'm sorry did I go too far?" Ana was worried. "No" Cally said solemly, "I think I want to try this, I think I kinda like it." Ana was relieved, "I'd like to do this too, you're gorgeous." Ana lowered her mouth to Cally's breasts and began to suck on them and flick her tongue over them. Cally moaned and Ana stopped only long enough to remove her own shirt and bra. Cally's eyes gleamed excitedly and she grabbed both breasts while leaning in for Ana's mouth again. Ana took off Cally's pants and slowly slid the silky black panties down her shapely legs. "Still ok?" Ana asked as she took off her own pants and panties. Cally smiled, "yeah." Ana's mouth and hands were all over Cally's breasts caressing, sucking, and pulling. Slowly her hands and fingers found Cally's warm wet pussy. Cally moaned a little and Ana ran her fingers along her slit and eased them into the warm wet pussy. Ana wanted to push her tongue into that hot pussy but held off. "Harder", Cally whispered, Ana was only too happy to be hard with her fingers.
A Man's Fantasy II
Cally didn't answer but laid down on the bed with a serious look on her face. "I'm not sure what to think right now" she said slowly. Ana laid down on her aside next to her watching Cally's eyes stare up at the ceiling. Ana waited a few minutes for Cally to go on, all the while staring at the body that lay next to her. The tight silky low shirt that let Cally's breasts spill over slightly, the hard tits that poked out from inside the black lace bra, the curvy hips uncovered by Cally's low slung jeans. Ana was tingly and aching.
Finally Ana spoke, "did you like it?" Callys eyes flashed wildly to Ana's. "Yes" she thoughtlessly ran her tongue over her lips. "You want to try it again?" Ana ventured. "Yes" Cally answered simply. Ana rolled closer and bent down to Cally's waiting mouth. Again Ana kissed Cally, but now there was no pulling back from Cally.
The girls lay in Cally's bed and kissed eachother. Ana was excited, Cally was horny, so despite her never having kissed another girl she dared to let her hand roam to Ana's back. Ana felt Cally's hand under her shirt on her bare back. Ana was horny now too, just the touch of Cally's fingers down her back and she knew...she wanted Cally out of these clothes. Finally Ana pulled away abd sat up, Cally followed suit, sitting with her legs spread and draped over Ana's. Tipsy now Ana became more daring and Cally more willing.
Finally Ana spoke, "did you like it?" Callys eyes flashed wildly to Ana's. "Yes" she thoughtlessly ran her tongue over her lips. "You want to try it again?" Ana ventured. "Yes" Cally answered simply. Ana rolled closer and bent down to Cally's waiting mouth. Again Ana kissed Cally, but now there was no pulling back from Cally.
The girls lay in Cally's bed and kissed eachother. Ana was excited, Cally was horny, so despite her never having kissed another girl she dared to let her hand roam to Ana's back. Ana felt Cally's hand under her shirt on her bare back. Ana was horny now too, just the touch of Cally's fingers down her back and she knew...she wanted Cally out of these clothes. Finally Ana pulled away abd sat up, Cally followed suit, sitting with her legs spread and draped over Ana's. Tipsy now Ana became more daring and Cally more willing.
A Man's Fantasy I
The girls were on Cally's bed working on the school project. Ana noticed that Cally had glitter on her cheek, Cally looked up and their eyes met. Ana's brown eyes were momentarily lost in Cally's hazel ones. "You got some glitter on you" Ana said and ran her hand over Cally's face letting it linger longer than needed, slowly she let it move over Cally's soft face and away.
Cally smirked and they went back to the project. Ana wondered if she had gone to far with the glitter. As her mind wandered she was only too aware that Cally had taken off her hoodie and now wore only a tight undershirt that hugged her curves and showed large full breasts. Cally set down her pen and notebook, "I need a break, you want a drink? I only have vodka and milk though," she said and grinned. "Vodka sounds good" Ana answered. The more the girls passed around the vodka the happier they got and the more they giggled. Cally poked the veins in Ana's arms and without thinking Ana put her hand on Cally's. Cally looked up and laughed and put a hand on Ana's other arm and ran it down to her fingers. In the moment Ana's liquid courage got the best of her and she laid a hand on the back of Cally's head and slowly moved in eyeing her full lips hungrily. Their lips touched. To Ana's pleassure Cally was returning her kiss. Cally pulled away first, "i've never done that before...kissed another girl." Ana smiled, "not bad right?"
Cally smirked and they went back to the project. Ana wondered if she had gone to far with the glitter. As her mind wandered she was only too aware that Cally had taken off her hoodie and now wore only a tight undershirt that hugged her curves and showed large full breasts. Cally set down her pen and notebook, "I need a break, you want a drink? I only have vodka and milk though," she said and grinned. "Vodka sounds good" Ana answered. The more the girls passed around the vodka the happier they got and the more they giggled. Cally poked the veins in Ana's arms and without thinking Ana put her hand on Cally's. Cally looked up and laughed and put a hand on Ana's other arm and ran it down to her fingers. In the moment Ana's liquid courage got the best of her and she laid a hand on the back of Cally's head and slowly moved in eyeing her full lips hungrily. Their lips touched. To Ana's pleassure Cally was returning her kiss. Cally pulled away first, "i've never done that before...kissed another girl." Ana smiled, "not bad right?"
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Home, Home on the Range
I can't help but dream longingly of having my own house lately. Could it be because I went to sit on the couch recently and could not even find it under all of the art supplies that were not mine? Or perhaps its the two pairs of underwear in the bathroom that do not belong to me. Or maybe, just maybe it was the moment that I went to blow my nose and noticed someone had used the last of the toilet paper and had not replaced it for the next person that drove me to think these crazy thoughts about having my own place where things don't need to look like hell with random shit all over the place...
I so look forward to decorating this imaginary home of mine, what will adorn the walls and what type of shower curtain will hang up. The normal girly thoughts of someone that has never lived alone and had the power to choose everything they want or don't want in their home.
Black and red bedspread, black panels and burgundy sheers on the window with a black rod and curved phinials. Elaborate candelabaras and other gothic and renaissance tidbits around the room. A tropical fun bathroom with teals and lime greens all around. A rockabilly kitchen with 50's style aspects all over and whole mess of seafoam green kitchen appliences to match. An uncluttered livingroom with a tv and furniture and some family portraits would be the icing to my little cupcake home.
Some day soon...
I so look forward to decorating this imaginary home of mine, what will adorn the walls and what type of shower curtain will hang up. The normal girly thoughts of someone that has never lived alone and had the power to choose everything they want or don't want in their home.
Black and red bedspread, black panels and burgundy sheers on the window with a black rod and curved phinials. Elaborate candelabaras and other gothic and renaissance tidbits around the room. A tropical fun bathroom with teals and lime greens all around. A rockabilly kitchen with 50's style aspects all over and whole mess of seafoam green kitchen appliences to match. An uncluttered livingroom with a tv and furniture and some family portraits would be the icing to my little cupcake home.
Some day soon...
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
So, is it weird...
So, is it weird when a man wants you to put your finger in his ass? Is it weird that he moans like crazy when you do put your finger in his ass? And he seems to love it when you move that finger in and out like you are fucking that ass? And then tells you to put two fingers in his ass? And when you do he pushes them in as far as they will go all the while moaning like he is going to bust a nut any minute?
If you answered 'yes' to any of the above, answer me this...
Is it weird if a man tells you he is thinking dirty thoughts about a dildo, and when you ask him what he would do with one right now if he had one and were not currently at school he answers that maybe he would put it in his mouth and pretend its a real cock? And when you suggest that the two of you get a little naughty and play "Hooker and John", is it weird that he asks you who will be the hooker and who will be the john?
Maybe all of this is normal male behavior, I have never come in contact with this sort of 'colorful' behavior before now, although I think I sort of like it lol...is that weird? lol
If you answered 'yes' to any of the above, answer me this...
Is it weird if a man tells you he is thinking dirty thoughts about a dildo, and when you ask him what he would do with one right now if he had one and were not currently at school he answers that maybe he would put it in his mouth and pretend its a real cock? And when you suggest that the two of you get a little naughty and play "Hooker and John", is it weird that he asks you who will be the hooker and who will be the john?
Maybe all of this is normal male behavior, I have never come in contact with this sort of 'colorful' behavior before now, although I think I sort of like it lol...is that weird? lol
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Sailor V
I took his cock in my hand, it was extremely hard and I tingled as I held it. I heard David draw in a quick breath as his eyes shut. He wanted it. My hand ran up and down the length of him, slowly at first then a little faster, his breathing got heavier. There is only so much self control that a tipsy woman can have when she is with a hot man and has a tool in her hand.
I had reached that limit now and by the sounds my sailor was making he was at his self control breaking point as well.
I lowered my mouth to his member and ran it across my lips. Davids eyes opened and he looked down at me with those big blue eyes. Our eyes held eachother for a few moments, he watched me lick my lips and slowly take the head of his cock into my mouth. It felt fun in there, the top of my mouth and my tongue felt the hard but sponginess of it. I looked back up at him and his eyes darted back and forth between my eyes and my mouth, watching as I slowly eased it down his cock deeper and deeper. When the whole thing was in I started to suck a little, I stopped for a moment or two to swirl my wicked little tongue around the swollen head. Boo moaned and his head tilted back, I smiled inside and went back to sucking him. He kept on moaning which urged me on faster, I was rather enjoying myself when he stiffened up and he whispered, "i'm going to cum for you Boo." I sucked harder. One final loud moan and my mouth filled with Davids cum. Swallowing it down I looked up at him panting and smiling. "God Boo...Wow...That was amazing. My whole body is tingling now." He was unable to move for several minutes, but when he finally did he only moved enough to pull me on top of him. He grabbed my ass and pulled me up until I was sitting on his face.
As soon as his tongue hit my skin I was his prisoner. Back and forth he flicked his tongue, fast and slow. I whimpered as he pushed that tongue into my pussy, wet and aching. The more he played his tongue on my girly parts the more I needed from him. As much fun as I was having I wanted another part of him in me now. Davids cock must have been thinking the same thing because he ceased his playing and motioned for me to dismount, which I did promptly.
My drink was still half full so I went to the glass and downed the rest of it, it was sweet and dry. Davids glass still had some liquor in it too. I brought it over to him figuring he may have worked up a bit of a thirst while he was at work. He downed it like a shot and looked at me playfully. "How do you want it Boo?"
A sinister grin spread over my face. "...I want you to fuck me rough, can you do that for me pet?"
I had reached that limit now and by the sounds my sailor was making he was at his self control breaking point as well.
I lowered my mouth to his member and ran it across my lips. Davids eyes opened and he looked down at me with those big blue eyes. Our eyes held eachother for a few moments, he watched me lick my lips and slowly take the head of his cock into my mouth. It felt fun in there, the top of my mouth and my tongue felt the hard but sponginess of it. I looked back up at him and his eyes darted back and forth between my eyes and my mouth, watching as I slowly eased it down his cock deeper and deeper. When the whole thing was in I started to suck a little, I stopped for a moment or two to swirl my wicked little tongue around the swollen head. Boo moaned and his head tilted back, I smiled inside and went back to sucking him. He kept on moaning which urged me on faster, I was rather enjoying myself when he stiffened up and he whispered, "i'm going to cum for you Boo." I sucked harder. One final loud moan and my mouth filled with Davids cum. Swallowing it down I looked up at him panting and smiling. "God Boo...Wow...That was amazing. My whole body is tingling now." He was unable to move for several minutes, but when he finally did he only moved enough to pull me on top of him. He grabbed my ass and pulled me up until I was sitting on his face.
As soon as his tongue hit my skin I was his prisoner. Back and forth he flicked his tongue, fast and slow. I whimpered as he pushed that tongue into my pussy, wet and aching. The more he played his tongue on my girly parts the more I needed from him. As much fun as I was having I wanted another part of him in me now. Davids cock must have been thinking the same thing because he ceased his playing and motioned for me to dismount, which I did promptly.
My drink was still half full so I went to the glass and downed the rest of it, it was sweet and dry. Davids glass still had some liquor in it too. I brought it over to him figuring he may have worked up a bit of a thirst while he was at work. He downed it like a shot and looked at me playfully. "How do you want it Boo?"
A sinister grin spread over my face. "...I want you to fuck me rough, can you do that for me pet?"
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